I swear im not the same anymore

Never is there a moment I do not think of you

2010-05-05T18:07:00.000-07:00

I've been sick since 1st of may till now gosh.. fever up and down!

Bao bei kept waking up and putting cold tower on my head for my fever to cool down for

the past few days and cause of me she hasn't had enough sleep now.. her eye bags

popping out le wor... Bao bei ooOo sorry lehs.. wo hui xiang ban fa long ni kai kai xin xin de! >.<

Bao bei Thank you for taking such good care of me! I'll never forget how much you care for me de!

Anyway this was taken on Monday when I 1st visited Tan Tock Seng for my fever. Jul took the photo.

I'll start updating my blog bah! Anyway when Bao bei come's home today I sure to pamper

her! She's done alot for me and I realise I very naughty lor!.. never give her enough

sleep still wake her up haiz..! Hao lah I wont do it again PROMISE! >.< kkayz imma end

here. Will update somemore soon! :)

2010-01-28T11:40:00.000-08:00

It's been 24days since my last post alot have been happening!!
Things were bore before you came back!~

The day I picked you up!!~ 12January 2010

I planned loads off stuff but only 2 were successful.
but at least the most important plan went alright I guess?

Dressed up differently, smelled good left the house, got you
roses and left to start waiting for your arrival at the
airport.

Reached the airport around 12.20am. On my way there I had a call from
Hui yee telling me you'll be late about 3 hours or might not even make it
on that day. Honestly at that point I was kinda afraid and whatmore
furious, I was afraid & angry you had to stay there cause "he" asked you to.
And I thought you missing your trip was a lie to cover "his" backside.
(guess I was wrong about it.) Truely sorry about that.

Anyway I waited there at budget terminal for you 2.50am flight to land hoping maybe
you did board that plane and while waiting I decided to take my plan into action.

Gathering large amount of people to welcome you back (PUBLIC) hahahq~
I was hoping to make you feel more welcome back in Singapore not just
by me but by people we dont even know!

Than rehearsed how I was gonna hug you and toss you when I get to see you.
hahaha but I guessed you really missed the flight so me and some (PUBLIC)
continue waiting but eventually they had to go off around 4.10am.

I was still waiting at Bugent Terminal but realized the flight arrival list
were way off the chart like totally time slot too far away from what Hui yee
told me 5-6am. I didnt wanna be late to pick you up. caused I wan to be the first
in Singapore to see you. I went to check by calling the airport airlines and
asking about your flight arrival lor... heng I manage to find out if not hor...
I wait there like stuuuuupidddd and you lannnd there like Loneer~

anyway you know the rest what happened right>? I think I shall skip abit till yesterday cos I dowan to wake up late tmr!

I'll update the rest soon!

28January.

We had our lunch at Hui yee's place and Qiang cooked for us yummy!~
I know I know his food taste x1000 better than mine >.<

after eating we pang seh Qiang at tpy but on our way there I asked a sec school boy at the overhead bridge whether you look good in that dress Hui yee got for you! REALLY REALLY it's VERY NICE
but EXTRA NICE WHEN YOU WEAR IT!

headed down to my place. from tpy~ reach le woodlands go causeway point walk walk
wanted to watch movie so we went to check 1st. In the lift... I ask this Auntie "er aunty ar, dontcha think she (YOU) where like that nice anot?" aunty replied" yah yah nice, it's nice!, I think you where anything also nice!" I told you were beautiful didnt I?! tuuupiiiidddd keep saying no... haiz... don believe me...

Headed to my house and hanged around for awhile. I got changed cause you girls have to wear so nice! unfair!~ I was done and we headed to pasir ris le. Ben's house to collect you IC. In the best to his house, that was the 1st time I ever done that and I think that was the only time a girl ever left me express my feelings for her through a song in PUBLIC and yet she smiled. I thought you'll ask me to softer but instead you said louder! I thought I was crazy.. but.. you were crazier! I never in my life did that before! But I really wish I could again but with the song of your choice, I was a complete failure when you picked songs for me to sing.. Sorry about that.. :( But I could see you were happy deep down. :)

Your IC'S taken and we headed straight to yishun for dinner.
nth much about that just that I just got 2 more colour on my fingernails! rawr I feel gay! (HAPPY)

After dinner headed home. on the way back I believed we had some fun? though I think you had more lah! get to get blindfold and walk home... wow... 1st time I heard anyone doing that. Imagine I lead you towards a pole and let you bang into it... I wonder what would you do to me!

Reached home and we watched Movie, Ring (jap) wasnt scary at all... my review for it is... I CANT READ CHINESE SUB-TITLE and I can only understand a little jap.. so.. I was bored, and emo I COULDNT READ! damnit worst I fell asleep! and here I was asking you to watch this ghost show with me and that I'll be there if you're afraid. haiz... I guess end of the day I really was a failure, super sorry~!@$#%^&%* I really didnt mean to fall asleep.. Anyway cooked you dinner and soon after less than 10mins you were SOUNDLY asleep like a princess. :) er... (like a princess with a SOUNDLY zZzZZZ) hahaha Oh-yasumi Hime-sama!

4th-5th January 2010

2010-01-04T12:44:00.000-08:00

4th January
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I spoke to you in the early morning 7:48:45 AM okay!!! hahaha I went to check the time we started conversation. actually early but I reply at 7:48:45 AM! so yea! Once again I had a great time "talking to you" though I was talking you were typing... YOU ZHUAN okay! >.<>

You have alot going through your mind, your worries, your sadness.. I wont be able to

understand how you really really feel unless you let me in. There's things you needa face on your

own and things you can face with your friends? But how do you know which is the face alone and

with your friends?.. I believe you're strong. VERY in fact! just that no muscles lah! but.. going

through so much in 18yrs of your life, this isnt something a close friend or people that cares for

you let you go through your hardships alone. I know I wouldnt, cause I know you wouldnt let me

feel sad, hurt, emo and if I'm angry you'll try to cool me down.

Point is. Im not here cause I dont have a choice. Im here because I want to be here, Im here cause I want to help you, Im here cause I really really care for you. I am here because you are here.

When you are ready do tell me what's really bothering you.

AND YOU AR!!! COME BACK SINGAPORE no.1!!! get scolding!!! no.2 GO DOCTOR HORRR!!! scolding not by me lahhss.. your parents!! :x

no.3 we go shop for Hui yee's present!! no.4... you'll see! ^.^..V.

Anyway this is hard to read I know.. It's hard to understand? maybe for now. when you're back I'll explain everything to you okay? :)
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5th January
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I'll be going bowling with Jie wei, Zheng yu and maybe Nicholas later!
wont be home till around 10pm! >.<
when I reach home 1st thing I'll do is go your blog!~ go update hor!

You need2know you're more precious than you think you are right now okays! I've been telling myself good stuff about myself and you must also kay! think positive!! if not... BITE YOU AR!!! RAWR!!!
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I think I said too much! >.<>

Oyasumi~! *kiss you good night!*

13day of waiting! 7days till your return!~ SOON SOONN!!!

4th January 2010!

2010-01-02T14:46:00.000-08:00

Sorry I havent got time to update blog >.< Well... most of the days I wasnt at home but like yesterday I was but I had nothing to type about. Just staying at home boring thing to blog about! :(

Anyway yes I really do miss you alot alot alot AloOT!~ and now that you're in Perth all alone I miss you and worry more for you! wahhh!~ Heard you'll be going out soon hopefully things will go smooth over at your side! My dance video will be posted soon ar! For now I'm just waiting for my friend to send to me. Things here have been kinda complicated for me, people are drifting away no matter how tight I hold on to them I'm just not good enough. Somewhere inside me there isnt anything for anyone to hold on to.. Im more of a come and go kinda person which I hope I'm not to you! >.< style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);"> come back soon!!~ Really miss you!

9th day of waiting! 8 more days till your return!

30th December 2009

2009-12-30T12:30:00.000-08:00

Mummys Birthday! I havent exactly got her anything yet. I have no idea what to get for her! Well once you're back we'll get something for her alrighty? >.<>

Well anyway you said "I am tired of acting I am fine.
How long must I put on this smile?"

hmm... den quit acting lor.. go find another job your acting fail le ahahaah I can tell you're not fine! >.<
hmm... the smile ar... put on another 1mins lor.. later remove le put a frown ( sad face ).
JOKING!~

You know you can always lean on us when you're unhappy about something right? There's me, Chen li. Hui yee, Zheng yu, Terie and many many more! You just need to voice out your troubles and worries things which you are ready to talk about. We'll always be there for you; I'll ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU even through the heavy storms, hot whether or end of the world you can always find me.

Sugar dreams to you!~ and also let's have our countdown together alrighty! I'll be saying it with you tonight inside my heart.

9th day of waiting! 13 more days till your return!

29 December 2009

2009-12-29T10:49:00.000-08:00

Yet another day at home hahaha bored to death! k lah.. I was owning alot in GunZ k! anyway...

In the morning I had a very bad headache and nose bleed. I came online and I saw you on! We spoke a little and I fell asleep! sorry!~ Didnt go out with Wai sun or anything today didnt want to. I dont know why but I guess that's just how I felt I should do.

Played a little here and there sleep a little here and there till 11pm and you came online! I didnt know at 1st >.<>

I wasnt putting full attention to you earlier I'm sorry! >.<>
Im glad we spoke through the night! I really am happy for what's been said even though honestly it hurts alot I feel much better knowing you'll tell me about how you feel honestly. I cant assure you anything but only that what I feel for you is real. It's not just a crush or puppy love. I really do feel special whenever im with you, I really hope I can hit your expectations.

Give me time, give us time, let's make time, to make us right.

I'll say it once, I'll say it twice, I'll say this 3words. I Love you.

Come to think of it im good with all these rhymes or poems >.<>

Alright too tired to colour and change the fonts le. now 6.42am >.<>

Nights Love You always..

8th day of waiting! 14 more days till your return!

28 December 2009

2009-12-28T11:58:00.000-08:00

Home

Woke up at 7.30am! Prepared for a trip to Sentosa with Terie, Wai sun & Vic. Met Wai sun and her friend Vic (meeting him for the 1st time) around 9am at Bishan. Headed directly to Mac for breakfast (I was starving badly!) After eating and talking loads of crap since we havent seen each other in a long long time we then headed to meet Terie at Douby Gaunt Mrt platform.

Vivo City Part 1

Took the new Monorail train all the way from Vivo City to Sentosa Beach Zone! From there we walked down to Fort Siloso Beach but, than we walk back as it was closed due to someone's death yesterday. So we kinda with to Pulawan Beach instead. Whether wasnt doing that well supposely to be a heavy storm but kinda pull something off. I couldnt let the whether spoil our day afterall we had to catch up with times we've lose in the past! So then I did a little something and poof whether was clear again RAIN just stopped instantly. Amazing isnt it? hee h3e!

3,2,1 Go!

I took of my shirt and headed down to the water did a little stunts here and there! Haha Wai sun was touchy with her Vic friend but it was alright as long as she doesnt emo about her break up :)

Vivo City Part 2

Stayed there till around 3-4pm and we went Vivo city! girls and their shopping sprees! trust me it's scary! and I fell alseep in the stores itself! like in TopMen, Forever 21 and some other Stores! MACHUM PAI SEH! >.<>
(ALL THIS HAPPENED AFTER DINNER) Food wasnt nice dont wanna talk about it. we didnt do anything just ate and chat a little.

Vivo City Part 3

Soon later Maford came, Terie's friend originally but I kinda gotta know him! We talked alot alot of XXX stuff as in joking stuff lah with everyone as in our group not to public damn funneh! I realised I keep doing stupid stuff! We continued shopping till around 9pm and then went to Starbucks to chill!~ Dont like Starbucks I prefer CoffeeBean! Once again nonsense flew everywhere and than we went up to the Vivo roof.

Vivo Roof Game

Truth or Dare! I was the 1st to kena forfeit and worst 4 consecutive times!!

1st: Grid a lamp post.

2nd: Dance from 1 end of a long stairs to the other end.

3rd: Go back to the same lamp post flap my hands and make bird sound.

4th: Take off T-Shirt and swing 3rounds!

I DID ALL OF IT LAH!! OMG...

Than I took Truth!

I forgot all the questions but I answered them honestly!

BLAH BLAH BLAH~

Terie also kena alot but this time round 1 dare only.. the rest truth questions

Grid the Lamp post also!

Back2Home

We started leaving at 11pm nothing much happened after that lahs hahaha now I'm here writing today's long day. I really wish you were here! One day we'll go Sentosa too alright?! Very tired and shag hopefully you wouldnt get bored of my long winded story!~ >.< ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Aside from that Ms Jean said she can only give me your results but cant give me your password & that of which the poly registration is during February next year! :) Update you more soon!

Nights Love You always..

7th day of waiting! 15 more days till your return!

UP DATED FEBRUARY 8 will be Poly Registration.

27 Decemeber 2009

2009-12-27T09:54:00.000-08:00

My 6th day of waiting and I guess I'm getting a hang of this but you've got to return soon!~ Any longer and I'll fall apart!

Yet another day at home. I've been doing something constructive, I think. I've been working on my vocals and dancing hard! YES I DID PLAY GAMES -_- and I've asked my networks if they could get me somewhere out there. Everything I do has got to improve and yes Imma practice hard!

Had a very pleasent conversation with you, Im really glad to have you in my life as someone special who's a friend and more than a friend!~

IM NOT COLOURING THE TEXT TODAY! hahaha I've gotta prepare for something sorry!
when you're back you'll see! :)

I hope you missed me cause I really do miss you alot! I'll work my way to your expectations! This I promise you.

6th day of waiting! 16 more days till your return!

26 December 2009

2009-12-26T14:34:00.000-08:00

I didnt go anywhere today neither did I do anything much. I read some books, I sang some songs, I played some games, I danced my day & I waited through the day :)

I hope you're doing fine in the big city and all that! I hope You didnt get lost or something >...<

The days are counting down and we'll meet once again. 26 December 2009 (6.30am)

Sorry I cant be constructive today! But there's this dream I had that I feel emo about! Talk to me about it soon alrights! Thanks! :)

I promise there'll only be you at the end of my finishing line.

2009-12-25T11:05:00.000-08:00

Santa!
Jerome have been a very good boy. He wishes HER as his Christmas gift wrap HER and deliver HER to me would you? :)

Christmas was much this year. People I wanna celebrate it with were not around. I missed the 1st Christmas with You I wont miss the 2nd one.

Everyone's not free today and neither was I. I had to go visit my godma and godpa (I go there annually since I was young) Love them. I went there pretty late around 7-8pm due to a selfish fact of me playing games with Zheng yu and group.

Anyway I had dinner over there and had a blast, talking to Godpa Johnny and his colleague!!:)
we were drinking (MARTELL okay!) and talking about the amount of "xiao pai kia". I left there around 11.10pm and headed straight home. I tong half bottle k, and im still sober!

I came home and straight away played with Zheng yu & the rest. 1-2games forced to lorr... if I didnt play I'd be like damn bad cause all of you waited sorry!

Soon after You came online.

We chatted awhile then I had to go entertain them. I'm sorry to had pang seh You awhile! >.<
Anyway I came back for You okay! and and I entertained You too okay! Actually I hope I managed to entertained You! >.<>

I'll tell you again..

I really meant what I said when I looked You in the eye and sealed that kiss with a promise made for You and me. You mean so much to me I just hope I'd never hurt You. If I ever come close to hurting You please tell me.

I'll be the man you wan me to be.
I'll be me just like you wan me to be.
I'll be the one to change your life.
I'll be the strongest wall you could ever lean on.

Christmas Eve at home!

2009-12-24T10:58:00.000-08:00

I was home the whole day today piang si bei boring ar! Morning wake up... planned to prepare and go tim's place..

in which i went back2sleep till 2pm... -_- THEN I WAKE UP AGAIN! THIS TIME SUPER BAD HEADACHE.... Decided

to just stay home.

When I came online My Mood Changed... I went all jumpy! As in really leh! When You said "jerome!" I went

YAY!!!!!!!! she's ONLINE!!!!! Though I said little.... (IM SO SORRY! >.<) my reaction was big okay! I kept telling

my di di "SHE ONLINE SEE SHE ONLINE!!" ahahahas!!!

This was how our conversation went.

Short and sweet, simple yet funny.
Feelings grew bigger and bonds made stronger.

though of cos I'm the funny one lah! she's just the (feelings grew bigger) the "BIGGER"

joking lahs! she is the sweet =) and I am the funny!

soon she had to go so I went to Gunz when she went offlin
e.
Playing half way she came online! omg!! I didnt know! Im so sorry! >.< bro ="D" fyora ="("> Merry Christmas to You & everyone else! =D

19days till your return tahan abit I'm sure we can do it!

Kiss you on the left cheek, right, forehead, chin and your lips=) good night love.

James Birthday Celebration 23rd December

2009-12-23T08:02:00.000-08:00

Today James birthday ar!~ Zheng yu woke me up at 8-10am!~ long as usual... woke up wash up and still I had spare time... So... Jerome decided to Jurassic Park with Zheng yu and James! we played with 1 public (idiotic noob ego like a cow but played like a noob) so anyway game lasted an hour and before i know it, the time was already 12.10pm! our meeting time was 1pm bugis and I stay at woodlands.... F*** The WHAT!~ I kinda rushed out of house to meet Zheng yu at Bishan MRT station continued training till Bugis reached there around 1.20pm Ms Jean and birthday "boi boi" James had already reached there waiting for us, which Leo reached 10mins later and we headed straight to MOS Burger! WAS CRAVING FOR THEIR FILLET BURGER LAH!!! ATE T-W-O! From there we waited for Sue-Ann, Chen Li & Chang wei which they were E-FFing LATE!~

After MOS-ING went Arcade and Lan to kill time! played L4D2 and Counter-Strike within an hour which was about 5pm-6pm.

Headed to Zhong Hua Steamboat to have our dinner (same place as I had my dinner celebration with James they all this year) Stephenie brought her boyfriend along but reached around 7-8pm by than me Sue-Ann, Zheng yu, Chen Li, Leo and Ms Jean Stomach full liao. Chang wei left early due to work PANG SEH KIA!~

After dinner headed to Suntec! 1st thing I did was head to the Fountain of Wealth and checked out the laser show thinge.. which everyone accompanied me thnx! We than headed to Sky Garden and played something lame but it was kinda fun in the end!

Started to head back around 9.40pm took a bus home with Chen Li 961 a 1hour 22mins trip for me and when I reached home I headed straight to the shower! 11.10pm like that! Remembered you saying "bathing late is bad" Then I *sneezed* and you said "see lah tell you le dowan listen" so I took my shower 1st! Sorry for being late! >.< I've just missed my 1st chanced to speak with you when you're so far yet so close. I hope tomorrow wont be like this! =D Listening to the songs you posted on Facebook now! Will be waiting for you!

2nd day of waiting! 20 more days till your return!

Good night to you my only one, to you I'll be your anyone. Sugar Dreams to You

As months goes by and days to come I'll be right here right by your side.

Counting Down the days, till your return i shall wait.

2009-12-22T11:22:00.000-08:00

Blogging again till your return. It's already 13hrs since I've received you last sms I wonder if you're enjoying yourself there (I hope you do!~) right now it's 3am ++ but i still cant sleep am tired but I just cant help it. I wanna be there for you even if things doesnt work out well. There so much I wanna tell you but there's too much to say and little words I know of could describe the way I feel for you. When I go to bed tonight, tomorrow night and the nights to come I'll always think of the way I'd kiss you2bed.

Jeromeo will keep on trying!

Sugar Dreams 2 you my special one.

I wish I could have seen you off but at least I could pick you up.